IWSG JUNE 2016 Darn Darkside Vagrant

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Happy IWSG June 2016!

 

I’m late getting my post up.  Yesterday was a bad day or rather it ended badly leaving me feeling discouraged, boxed in and alone.  No matter how much I tried, I just could not make myself write, mainly, because all my thoughts were negative and in the doldrums.  So to self I say—

Focus on the light, actionable steps that you can manage and mow down the dark to the edges of your mind and let the light take up residence. I am kicking that vagrant Darkside to the curb. He has squatted on my property far too long, and I have let him. This house is mine.

I still don’t really know what to write.  I am a bit like a deflating air balloon with a pin hole. You can’t tell where the air is getting out but you know that it is somehow.   The more I blow the more effort it requires but the balloon keeps slowly deflating despite my push to restore it.

My fear I guess when I feel like this is that I am caught in a repeating loop and will never get off the ground doomed to repeat the same day, choices, behaviors, reactions, consequence without figuring out the switch that will change it, over and over and over… I just can’t figure it out no matter how hard I try.

Okay, enough of that.  I am going to go work on my story for StoryTime Blog Hop July 27, 2016.  It will be our third one in 2016 and 4th since the blog hop was founded.  Anyone interested in joining us drop me an email, Junetasblog@gmail.com.   We have not put out an open call this time but we welcome any interest, so consider yourself invited.

 

It is general speculative fiction and I can send you the details if you would like to join us.  We want you, so drop me a line.   It is almost 2 months away on the 27th of July, so you have plenty of time to write a short story of 500 to 1000 word limit.

NEXT HOP JULY 27, 2016

Storytime Blog Hop Open Call

Storytime Blog Hop

Founded 2015 by students of writer and teacher Holly Lisle.  

How To Think Sideways: Career Survival School for Writer’s.

(The hop schedule follows this pattern:  The 4th Wednesday of the month, January, April, July, and October.  Story links due by the 20th of that month.)

 

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  • Writing is what got me out of the darkside. It lets my mind go elsewhere. I’d pick a piece of art and write whatever first popped into my head – wrote without purpose or expectation other than to free myself. When I get stuck in a project I’ll do the same.

  • I find that sometimes when I try too hard to do something, whatever it is I’m trying to do becomes more difficult. Taking a break usually is a good diversion for me.

    Arlee Bird
    Tossing It Out

    • I have to watch myself or I will procrastinate myself into a very long break although there have been times when that has helped too. Thank you for the input.

  • I hope the shadows are still gone, purged from your house and mind. Days like that are so discouraging. Picking yourself up is hard, but it’s worth it to keep plugging on. I hope your short story is going well. Hang in there!

  • Wow, do I have days like that. Too many, sometimes. We need to breathe, plug up that blasted pinhole, and move on. All the best, Juneta!

  • Darkside, get thee behind me! Or something like that. I hope you have kicked him into the gutter and he remaineth there! Loved your analogy of the balloon with the pin hole. I hope you’re feeling sunnier now.

  • Sometimes you have to try something new to break a cycle. Good luck and keep that Darkside out on the curb!

  • I would love to join in on the blog hop. I just don’t know if I can commit for July. Can you send me the info so I can decide if July will work or it I’ll have to wait for October? (kaistrand at yahoo dot com)

    Good luck finding your inspiration! I completely understand. Ugh.

  • Hey, I think you might be on to something with this visual of kicking the vagrant Darkside out of the house! Sounds like a fun and creepy story 🙂

  • I hope the darkside went running off in fear after this post. We all have those moments,. I totally agree with Liza that stepping away to clear your head might be just what you need – it’s worked for me countless times.

  • Hurray! You’re doing another blog hop story!
    Well done for kicking that darkside vagrant where it hurts (and beautifully put too).
    You’re always welcome to drop me an email and rant if that can help. Shame I’m too far away to do more 🙁
    Do you keep a diary? I find that writing things out help. It helps me make sense of things and just gets it out of my system. (Then I’ve also got all that angst recorded for if I ever need to write about it!)
    Really, really hope that things are looking better.
    Hugs,
    A

  • yes, focus on the light – easy to say, hard to do!

    and i have a couple of stories in the works. i’d love to join the hop or hear more about it!

    ps – thanks for reading and reviewing for me, greatly appreciated!! Disposal is in the works! I’m loving it!

    • We would love for you to join us in the blog hop, Tara. Please do. Thank you. You are welcome I enjoyed it. Hurray.. Does a happy dance for Tara,

  • Sometimes the only way to get out of a rut is to blow up the whole dang mountain. Change is scary. But not nearly as scary as staying stuck.

    Or, as us old horse trainers like to say… If what you’re doing isn’t working, change what you’re doing.

    😉

  • I’m sorry you had a rough day. It’s nearly impossible to write when you’re thinking about it all. The Dark Side is such a busybody. Just tell the Dark Side to shut the hell up ’cause you’re busy. Then write something just to spite them. *shakes fist at the dark side* 😉

  • Can I suggest you write down every emotion you’re feeling? Express all your anger on the page. File that away, because trust me, you will need to write a scene with all those emotions one day. I used to want to punch something when I felt like that. It helps if I get all my frustrations out. It’s like venting to a good friend. Good-luck with your blog hop entry. I hope to one day write a short piece. 500 – 1000 words sounds so hard. You deserve all the respect you get. Don’t stop writing, please. Keep on. I’m cheering for you!

  • For me I get that feeling when I just keep churning stuff over in my head – like the loop you mentioned. Hard to break out of the cycle sometimes and focus on the good things. I like to take a walk to clear my head but often I just find giving it a bit of time helps. Hope things are better for you today, Juneta.

  • So sorry you had a lousy day, Juneta. Every writer is different of course, but when I get to a point where I can’t make myself write, I’ve learned it’s best to step away from the keyboard and try again later. The key words here? Try again. Don’t Beat your head against the wall until you’re so discouraged you give up.

    VR Barkowski

  • I’m sorry you had a bad day and I sure hope things get better. You pep talk to yourself was perfect, though. That’s the right kind of attitude to have. I especially loved: I am kicking that vagrant Darkside to the curb. Yes, kick it to the curb. Kick it hard!

  • I’ve been caught in this awful state of mind far too often. They say the best way to break out of a negative loop is to try something completely different or out of the norm to shake yourself out of the cycle. Good luck!

  • Just write it, you’ll fix it later. Seriously, sometimes thinking too hard about stuff gets you nowhere. the best ideas come while you are writing!

    • I don’t doubt that you are right, I will keep working on getting it out there. You are inspiration for me to keep doing that too. Hugs

  • You know how some people say, walk it off. I say, write it out–right out of your system. Keep going until you feel things shift. It works for me every time and the best part is there is no holding back. Shout about it. Whimper about it. Say all that is on your mind. There will be no one to judge and no one to see it.

    On paper you can burn it and let the wind take it away.

    Take care, Juneta. 🙂

    Anna from elements of emaginette

    • You know I want to do that so bad, but when it comes to my emotion I have a hard time putting it down in print,. Not sure why, but I will keep trying. Thank you.

  • Time to get some helium and float that balloon up high, the hole will hopefully mold over and back to normal haha

  • I know this is probably not what you meant by “writing” but I thought that Darkside description was wonderful, and so was the balloon analogy. 🙂

    Sometimes, doing even small positive things can break that negative loop enough to break the pattern, to let some light in. Hang in there!

    • Thank you for saying that. I tend to think in metaphor and cliche, so I have to watch myself. Thank you for the praise,. Made my day.

  • It’s tough when you get caught in that spiral. Like Groundhog day over and over.

  • A wise blogger once told me when I was stuck, it was time for action. Get out of the house, go for a walk, run, bike ride, drive, whatever. Visit something new. Take time out to recharge your batteries. It works!

  • I tend to do a lot of moping on dark days (maybe play a few games whilst subliminally kicking myself for not doing anything productive), getting into a silly spiral until… Boom! Wake up one day and I’m off writing again.

  • I was late today, too. Sometimes it just happens. And sometimes we can’t write worth diddly if at all. I think we have to chalk that up to being human.

  • I definitely feel this. My apathy recently has been off the charts. Glad you were already able to get out of it, and hope it continues that way! The days when it feels like–to use your metaphor–the balloon is leaking are so difficult to get through.

  • Ah, Juneta, I am so sorry. My balloon has had a leak too. I just always remember what Stephen Frye had to say about these sorts of things: “It’s okay to be in the doldrums, the Darkside (I’m paraphrasing wildly) and feel that negativity, because the sun WILL shine again.”

    What I find interesting about this, is when we get like this, we deny ourselves the one or two things that actually make us feel better about ourselves. Writing, or playing the viola; it may not be perfect, but I have this horrible tendency to just stew in my own misery and that just feeds on itself. So, yes! Throw it off! Get back to what makes you happy, even if it just makes you feel so-so for now. It WILL get better! Always remember that! Mary

  • I’ve found talking it out helps me overcome the blasé feeling. I’ll tell my sis-in-law what I should be working on, and we’ll go back and forth about why I don’t really feel like making an effort. Usually the conversation will spark ideas and then kick up the passion again. Do you have someone you can talk about writing with?

    • No one to talk to who gets my writing or understands why I do it. My current situation is not encouraging which was part of my turmoil. All my writing support is online. I had a friend once that I talked with like that but have lost contact with them. I miss those talks. Its a rare few that get it in my world.

  • Sounds like you need to change something up a bit and give yourself a chance to find some fresh ideas.
    Or get a new balloon. Those Mylar ones stay inflated for a long time…

  • I have an idea for a short story but things are so hectic in both family life and writing life that I don’t know if or when I will get to work on it. I need a pause button. Seriously.

    • Would love for you to join us. You have to July 20th to get it done. 500 to 1000 words. Rules on sidebar up top putting out an open call. Happy Writing. Thanks for taking time to comment.

  • I understand how you feel, Juneta. I also know how difficult and freeing it is to write those thoughts out for the world to see. Deep breath. It’s only up from here!

  • It makes my day to hear that you’re working on your StoryTime Story! I’ll send any happy thoughts I can muster your direction, and loads of encouragement with them.

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